28th August 2018
Mildi: Good evening 😊.
Safiyy: Good evening. What’s up?
Mildi: It was our school anniversary today. And then I had to leave earlier, I was running late for our org meeting 😂. I’m trying to be active again.
Safiyy: That’s good.
Mildi: Not really. I’m just trying to catch up; I feel like I wasted some good years of my life by spending my days mindlessly. I also downloaded some ebooks. Inspired by your thoughts haha. Wuthering Heights and Frankenstein.
Safiyy: I’ve read both of them. They are among my favorites.
Mildi: You’ve read a lot and the way you converse proves that
Safiyy: Thank you. I try to read as much as I can. You also seem well read, to be honest.
Mildi: I thought I was, until I started talking to you. I’ve realized I have a lot of work to do, more books to read haha. I wrote a poem for my brother for his birthday last year. I’ll send it to you; I hope you like it 😁.
Safiyy: Please go right ahead.
Mildi:
for the boy who stepped in the womb first
for you
There is a time when I was not part of your life,
years before my heart started beating.
Mornings I was not there when the sun was rising
nights I didn’t know were for sleeping
There are old family pictures where I was not captured
There are meals I neither skip nor miss for I was not even there yet living
for me
there was a time when I
was between your arms
there were mornings I awoke you by my crying
there were nights when I fell asleep listening to your voice
there were times love was told but never made a sound
there were times love was shown but I was still seeing colors for the first time
for us
there were days you taught me about Math
and those were days I taught you about patience
there was a time you told me to listen
but I stepped on your broken leg anyway, I just have to include that
there were photographs of us together
there were toys we shared
there’s a part in you that’s a part of me
and a part of me that’s in you
there are paintings you made as an artist
there is poetry I made as a poet
there is a womb only the both of us shared
and because of that there will never be a day that you are not my brother.
Mildi: I really did break his leg once when we were playing basketball 😅.
Safiyy: How did he react to this poem?
Mildi: He said I really did test his patience when he tutored Math 😂.
Safiyy: I can empathize with him. I’ve also had to bang my head over many walls while tutoring my little sister.
Mildi: Hahaha. Your sisters are lucky to have you. Your walls aren’t 😂😂.
Safiyy: Neither is my skull.
Mildi: Hahaha you should at least wear proper equipment when it is tutoring time. A helmet perhaps hahaha. I feel sleepy already😅. I still want to chat but my eyes can’t take it any longer.
Safiyy: Alright. We can chat tomorrow. Take care.
Mildi: Good night 😊
29th August 2018
Mildi: I woke up with a swollen eye this morning. I think I got this when I ate a piece of chicken on an empty stomach last night. My body has grown better at fighting allergies but directly eating chicken dishes on an empty stomach still gives me trouble. I’ve been limiting my chicken lately. And I was famished after our events. But now I’m fine; I took my allergy meds which made me sleep for hours. How have you been?
Safiyy: Just writing. I’m sort of a perfectionist.
Mildi: That’s a good thing anyway. I have just spared some of my time daily to improve my writing skills. Right now, I have my dictionary, a notebook, and an old Literature book. I’ve noticed your letter-perfect way of chatting and that made me realize that I have to work on the way I chat. I’ve backread some parts and I can say I may be sloppy in the way I chat. Haha. Your writing reminds me of one of our literary pieces here entitled “Dead Stars”. It is different.
Safiyy: My writing is an exorcism. I have to exorcise Munazah from my soul.
Mildi: It’s so sweet of you to write about her. I really like your story especially that Munazah has inspired you to write, but I am hoping you can also totally let go … you deserve to be happy. And I don’t take you as someone who can’t live without a lover like the usual guys. You are having a good time with your craft. Maybe “writing” will be your mistress for this time. You will meet another woman soon and this time, fate will write her existence in your life.
Safiyy: I am awaiting this “another woman” with great eagerness. I have all the love in the world to give.
Mildi: I also want to try out art again. My parents and brother are great in painting, sketching, whatever art that is. Other people ask me if I’m also fond of that; I tell them I want to have my own thing. That was in the past. I’ve realized my “own thing” can wait. Haha, I’m in pursuit of finding purpose.
Safiyy: That’s the spirit, Mildi!
Mildi: Yes, and my spirit is now sleepy. I just went inside to get my stuffs but I saw my bed I became sleepy all of a sudden. Thank you for tonight 💗.
Safiyy: Talk to you soon.
30th August 2018
Safiyy: How was your day?
Mildi: I just stayed at home but left around seven in the evening. I attended a meeting nearby. It was almost a boring day until I realized I could do something to make it productive. But it was just me asleep for almost three hours in the afternoon, maybe it was still the meds that I took yesterday plus the weather. It’s cold today; it rained the whole day. And I learned from my classmate that we do have classes tomorrow. I thought it’s was a holiday. Oh, we just got a bit lucky today. Most days are very hot. My head often aches especially during lunch time.
Safiyy: What exactly do you study?
Mildi: Information Technology. My first course was in Secondary Education (English), but I transferred. But I am not happy with our system now. When I first transferred here, it was fine, but after a semester, things got so messed up. They focused on a new implemented part of our education (senior high), and college dept was left out. And all they do is plan out events events events. Such a waste of time and money. Haha.
Safiyy: Must be annoying.
Mildi: I used to be a member of our school’s group of student leaders, but I left. I told them I’m not happy with what I was seeing, so I might as well leave. I was so pissed off because such parties turned out to be mandatory. Haha. And as presidents, we have to make sure we reach our quota of students who will attend the party. I didn’t like it. I don’t want to force students to attend just because of a quota.
Safiyy: Your hands are tied, huh?
Mildi: I was elected as our class president again though😒, but I told them that I’ll only accept the position because I’ll show them that I won’t be a slave of the system. Hahaaaa and I feel like it worked in our class. It is toxic, really. I’m more interested in trying to be active in my subdivision. That’s why I’m out during evenings for about two hours; we have this get-together, just a few of us. But that will only be for nine nights. I prefer to stay at home than to wander.
Safiyy: Your mother must really like you then since you get to spend a lot of time with her.
Mildi: One morning, my mom just said, “You are my only daughter, you’re my treasure.”
Safiyy: What book got you into reading?
Mildi: My first book was Letters From Rifka.
Safiyy: Do you plan to write more poems?
Mildi: I’m now pondering what to write; you’ve really inspired me to write poetry, but this time, I want it to be different than how I wrote before. There’s nothing wrong with my poetry in the past, but it was written by a different fragment of my being.
Safiyy: A chicken-loving writer.
Mildi: We used to have chickens. A stray hen left like a dozen of chicks at our backyard. Then it flew outside of the fence and couldn’t return for its chicks anymore. I kept them. One day, there were 12 chicks, after months there like 40+ chickens. We gave them away… to some neighbors and relatives. I also had 2 rabbits for 4 years, I always told my dad that I want to try rabbit’s meat 😂. I told him that maybe when he got home from work, I would have already cooked them.
Safiyy: Cruel Mildi. Do you have a library?
Mildi: In my old bedroom … but I’ve been donating books, so it’s almost empty. I’m planning to have a fresh selection of my books. Done with the gore ones; my dad recently bought 13 Reasons Why for me though … it’s not that inspirational, but I’ll keep it.
Safiyy: Anyway, Mildi, it’s been lovely talking to you. My little sister is scowling at me in anger. She wants me to teach her continuous and discontinuous functions in mathematics. And you are beginning to become an enemy to her without even meeting her. Take care. Good night.
Mildi: Hahaha, good night, Safiyy. Talk to you tomorrow. Thank you for today 😊.
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